Friday, 9 September 2016

FMF, A Tearful Need

Five Minutes of Writing! This week's prompt, heal, GO!



I cried, hard in to my husbands arms. Tired of struggling, pain in my neck, so much of it ever since my car accident a few years back. "I'm a writer, I need a healthy neck" I cried in to his jersey, downcast, weary of this burden. Even now as I sit to type out five minutes of writing, patches line my twitching muscles, and I'm hurting. It's been a long walk, a prayer for healing, a cry for healing, a wailing for healing. Physiotherapy, ergonomic desk situation, regular breaks, stretches and everything else in between, I wonder sometimes, will it ever be okay? It's hard to know that pain has become a part of my life and I so young and so ready to begin new seasons, seasons God is calling me in to. Yes, I am sure people will tell me it's for the best and you need to rest but I have rested enough, God is calling me to my feet, to finish the many works I have begun. It's a strange thing to be aware of pain, to nurse yourself, to almost fashion life around the "not being able to today" and the sense of losing days worth of work and truth. It is hard, there is no denying it and I am fighting along with my tears, my pain and my continual cry for "healing." A tearful need of healing and the longing for this. So I cry out again and pray for a chorus of "amens," please Abba Father, please bring this healing! 

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9 comments:

  1. Stopping by from FMF. I won't be saying it's for the best. I don't believe that at all. I will pray along with you for your healing.

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    1. Hi SarasMOm, thank you! I appreciate the prayers so much. Have a fab weekend :)))

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  2. Wow, Lauren! This was beautiful! I am so sorry for the valley you are walking. I LOVE how eloquently you poured out your heart though. Such transparency, such passion. Beautiful.
    Thank you for sharing your need with us! I will pray, my friend.
    Shauna (your neighbour down the street in FMF#55 today)

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    1. Hey Shauna, I dont mind what name you use it is absolutely fine! My publisher wanted to use something that sounded "Not semitic" so they went for Lauren but I have two first names so it is fine. Thank you so much for the encouragement and for the prayers, they are needed, nice to see you dear friend! Blessings

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  3. Oh silly, I was looking at the book in the side column and addressed you as Lauren. Eish! I know you are Aliyah. If you want to change that in my comment, go ahead. Otherwise, I can also copy and repost it. You decide :)

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  4. I believe that God grieves with us in our pain. He promises to bring good of everything and I pray peace for you on this painful journey. Visiting from FMF#69

    Patricia

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  5. Oh dear sister! I am so sorry for your situation! I only can say that you are not alone on that very sad desperate special way. I could have written that same text in every detail. I am a painter/illustrator and have the same pain and struggle. Most time I cannot think or be creative because of pain in the neck, feeling like being in trance, pain is drawing in the head, in the eyes. Day by day the same pain. hundred of therapies. When I experience a day without pain, It´s like a miracle, I can think and have a lot of ideas. But they die the next day when pain is coming back and absorbing every glimps of creativity. Nothing ever helped. I often think of Philippians 3:10. One day we´ll understand . Endurance. Please feel hugged as a sister in Yahuah! Abbas Baruch and Healing and Shalom, Rivkah

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    1. Oh Rivkah, my friend! This is intense, I can't believe it, so much the same. As a creative we so need our bodies, day by day! Well, I am going to be lifting you up to the Throne of Grace, thank you for sharing this with me and for letting me know that you can relate and understand, that's comforting. Much love!! And Father how we trust for Your Healing!!

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  6. Thank you, dear friend. It´s good not to be alone on the narrow path. Yes, we trust Abba for our healing!!! No other way is possible. Shalom.

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